Thursday, June 21, 2012

Where to get healed?

When was the last post?  I couldn't even remember but I know definitely at least half year ago I have posted on this blog.

I have set a mission this year that I HAVE to complete my MBA by finishing my final thesis. But it was really sooooooooooo suffering! I almost give up to do my thesis which means I rather let my MBA fail than doing the thesis. I think this probably is because last year I had a good time of traveling around, enjoying life, attending just an elective in the middle of the year and now this year, I have to suffer the final thesis. Mainly also because I am doing it alone. arrgghhhhhhh.......

Until now, my energy, my brain function has been keep on draining and I still have to keep it up! I left like 1.5 half months time to finish it? Supposed to have longer period but my first draft have taken me like few months to draft it out AND I have went to the wrong direction of the title!!!! So means, I have RESTARTING it again!!!! arggghhhhh!!!! HELP!!!!! really need so much help!!!! and I am so lucky that Nigel is able to help up on this!!!!! He has given me the brain storm ideas. At least I have different input for the write up. But definitely, I really want to thanks my supervisor. She is really good that she was willing to bring me back to the right direction since I have written so wrongly in my first draft.With her guide, I think I could have better idea on how to continue doing my writeup.

Sigh... at the time of period rushing for this thesis, I am also working out for an apparel selling section in baobei's mum's shop. Means I will be taking up one corner of the shop to sell women clothing, which also one of my dream thing that I would like to do for looong loooooooong looooooooooooooong time ago. So and now I have the opportunity!!!! So I just have to grab it even though it's not at the right timing. So I have taken it up and prepare to do stock in, presentation for the corner of the shop, pricing calculation etc... So it's another busy things for me to do and taken a lot of my time. Some say, why don't I delay this plan and concentrate on the assignment first? But what my thought was, the opportunity is just right in front of my face, whether take it or leave it. Later maybe a lot of things might happen? Like the shop corner has been taken by other people again? Because the mum actually helped others to sell their apparel before. So I have to act fast!! Therefore, I have started to place order and the stocks already arrived and I shall be preparing to hang up to the shop soon!!!! Can't wait can't wait because this is something I dream to do it!! So let's see how it goes, whether this would be a continuous business or just one time business, but definitely I hope it will be a continuous business to run.

And another at the same time, I have a friend was asking help to do some e-marketing for him. So I have promised and willing to help since it's also something related to what I am doing for my thesis, and I am interested into it, too. So another job to take up again!!!!

So in total, there's like 4 things for me to do at the same time!! One, my career in my current company, secondly my MBA thesis, thirdly the apparel selling shop and fourthly e-marketing for my friend. argghhhhh...............I am going insane!!!! But the heaviest stone that I have is the thesis. I really hope that I could able to finish it on time and throw away this stone!!!! It's been torturing me. I need back my life.

May be for others might think that I should just concentrate my current job and thesis and let go others. But, calculating if there's extra pocket money for it? WHY NOT doing it??? Furthermore, baobei has bought a house for our future, so we need to do renovation for it. Who gonna pay for the bills? Definitely both of us!!!! SO ?? I shall work even harder to get more $$$. Working just for my current job does not able to support for the current situation. Sigh... sometimes.. really think that salary is not enough. But how? Unless changing new environment.. but NAH! at this point of time, won't be thinking about it, may be later?

Was thinking last night while on the way to sleep, I have not been traveling this year besides the Siam Riep trip. I wish to be like last year, traveling to various places. And hopefully by this year end I could able to travel to Europe, too with enough budget and time and with relax mode.

SO what's the conclusion for all these? I need to PUSH PUSH PUSH myself to finish all these!!!!!!! PLEASE SUPPORT!!!!!


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